Thursday, October 14, 2010

~Love= Patience+Tolerance~

爱是恒久忍耐,又有恩慈;爱是不嫉妒,爱是不自夸,不张狂,不做害羞的事,不求自己的益处,不轻易发怒,不计较人家的恶,不喜欢不义,只喜欢真理;凡是包容,凡是相信,凡是盼望,凡是忍耐,爱是永不止息。

当我遇到生气,想骂人,贪心,计较,心情低落的事情,这段经文总会让我看开一切然后重新振作起来。我要学会忍耐和包容,这是对我自己的要求。非信徒会犯错,是因为他们不认识神,他们不懂什么是恩典;基督徒相信了神,却犯错,这就跟非信徒没分别了。既然上帝赐下他的恩典使我们成为他的儿女,我们要珍惜并全心相信他。上帝用他的双手带领我们走义路,成为了我们脚前的灯,就我们脱离凶恶。所以我们不能偏离他的道,要活出神的旨意。上帝的恩典够我们用,他是道路,真理,生命。
What does the Bible say about grace? Grace remind us of this life-saving gift from God. Grace is at the heart of the Gospel message. We do not deserve God's grace, but He has given it to us; we should be moved to give our all to Him.♥
我明白,我了解,我必会去行。
传福音的宗旨我依然放铭记,这是在末日的日子来到以前,所有基督徒的责任。
我们向神祷告,迫切的祷告。他必定会垂听。马太福音21章22节说:你们祷告,无论球什么,只要信,就必得着。当我们所求的得着了,要感恩,要把自己所拥有的用在神的国度里,施舍给身边有需要的人而不是留起来让自己享受,因为这是上帝的恩典,我们白白得到的恩典。所以施比受更为有福。

我试着去原谅用言语伤害过我的人,使我受委屈的人,利用我的人。两个字-包容。

你是我的朋友,是我的家人。我忍耐。我不计较。我看开。为了就是不要让人与人之间生起仇恨。我会为你们祷告。上帝,原谅我在你面前犯下的错误,我真实地悔改在你的面前。

今天在副刊上再次看到马正远牧师的见证,他是年轻人的典范,是我们值得学习的榜样。这是他所说的一句话:
很多人都用物质开测量自己的身份价值,所以不断寻求认同的人,一旦不获他人接受就会不断要求自己做更多事情来获取认同。其实,一个有价值的人是不需要别人来认同的,人活着不是等待其他人来接受,只要获得上帝的爱,只要上帝接纳你,你就可以自由的成为真正的自己。
-Jaeson Ma 马正远牧师-

Monday, October 04, 2010

~Went Fishing Again~

Yesterday I went fishing again. LOL. This time I went with several youth group's friends. We had fun at there although no fish was caught. xD

We practise song and dance yesterday. I felt all of us improved. Well done! Since we have so many weeks to practise, so our worship in this month can do well. haha. And recently everyone can pray out loud. This was a good thing. Let us learned how to pray before Lord. Our prayer fully picking up again. Hallelujah!

How to defuse an awkward between us? I mean him. Haiz. He has been very negative recently. I think I should talk to him generous. We are friends. Why should we become like this? Disturbing this thing called love. Trouble. = =

It is the time to work hard for my coming exam!! @.@ hehe xD

Tomorrow sister is going to start her PMR exam. Wish her good luck. I will pray for her. Jiayou ba c:

---¥peace¥----

Friday, October 01, 2010

~Gospel~

Today I went to Full Gospel Church to attend their Youth Alpha. Have a enjoyable night with KS, Zack, Joanna and many others. This is the last time to participate in. I had learned through this. Very sorry to Sam that he came and fetch me but I had not ready on the time. Because KS didn't sms to confirm me so I thought I did not go today. Sorry for let him wait for me. We had a bit rush and I felt sorry to troubled him. Fortunately, we catch up time. Thank God. Besides that, thank you Sam for fetch me go and Joseph foe fetch me back :D
Today's theme was "Min Ge Can Ting''. So, we had listen many songs from all. Kenneth sang nicely as before. Others also sang very well. It is enjoyable to listen their song. And thanks a lot to Joanna that gave me Jay's poster. Happy to received it. xD It can match with the Jay's album [mo jie zuo] in the last year which was a gift from my dear friends. Thanks a lot! Joanna also was Jay's fans. She said she had a lot collectibles of him. Very envious of her because I cannot afford to buy all his collectibles. ^^
Today's sharing was nice. The speaker talked about the importance of share gospel, the problem we faced and how to overcome. It is useful to help me when sharing gospel with others. Awesome! I like it!
Sharing Gospel is the mission of every Christian. When we preach the gospel with people, they may say that I do not need Jesus. But the truth is not they do not need, but they do not understand. Our responsibility is to let them know Jesus, believe in Jesus.
Each person has five fingers> that is [the gospel hand].

Thumb -> behalf of a good that is God loves us;

Forefinger -> pointing to others, on behalf of each person have sinned;

Middle finger -> is the highest in all fingers, representing Jesus died on the cross for us;

Ring finger -> usually we will say "Yes, I do." in marriage,on behalf of our trust and believe Him;

Little finger -> Finally, on behalf of we get a new life.

God loves each of us, but we have sinned, but he was willing to die on the cross for us. So we are going to believe him, therefore we can get a new life.
When we want to preach the gospel with people in such a way can be used for. Good sharing from the speaker! I will try to apply this. :D
May God greatly use us as his vessels, let us strive to spread out the love of Christ and gospel, and do the witness of Christ! Amen!



Wednesday, September 29, 2010

~Disappointed on myself~

T3, T4 and T5 's results ----------------> FAILED

After I told my mum the results, she asked: " How come you get this kind of result?". I replied: " I also don't know."
My friends asked me:" What's wrong with you?" and I said " I also dont know."

___, I do not pass. ( yes / no)

Which one is the answer? I also don't know.

I can only say that I really study but not enough. It is my fault. I had realize. So I will change my attitude from now. Seriously. It requires action not just words.

Today we had an talk about MIA in college. The speaker's words inspire my mind. The road of accounting is not easy. I chose this road, I will regret or not in the future? I was thinking, since I had chosen so I should not to give up and stick to it. Buck up! I CAN DO IT!


Tuesday, September 28, 2010

~Complicated~

Just now I saw a post on Facebook. It made sense.
男生说…

有种女生让我很喜欢, 却不忍动情。

跟那种女生在一起时, 会有种温暖的感觉,

那感觉并不出自一时的冲动, 而是来自于彼此心灵的了解。

真的,

跟那种女生在一起时, 只有彼此心中的感动和心灵的交会,

没错,

当你发现她的心和你是如此贴近时, 常会想给她个结实的拥抱,

但仅仅在这个想法萌生后的一瞬间, 你们只会相视一笑, 有些东西是比爱情更珍贵的。

这种女生当女朋友是种浪费…

我害怕她做的我女朋友后, 我必须每天守着电话等着她的声音出现,

我害怕我必须说些花言巧语的话哄她, 更加害怕现实的束缚, 会限制住纯洁的心。

这种女生, 喜欢, 但我不会动情, 或者,这就叫红颜知己……

既不用为情所困, 为她的行为控制自己喜怒哀乐, 又能享有心灵上的交流。

有很多人都为交不到女朋友所苦,

但我觉得,假如没有了这种知己,人生,便多了许多遗憾…

女生说…

有一些男生,很令我动心,但却不会动情。

怎么说呢,因为他们给我的感觉像朋友,真正的朋友 。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情、婚姻、人生…

以及种种的烦恼…

在他们面前,我会忘记自己是女生,就不会撒娇、嫉妒、小心眼…

我和他们各站在天平的两端,我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来,在车站挥挥手,各自去等自己的车,走自己的路。

这种感觉…

是一种很难用语言能形容的愉悦…

信不信 ,跟这些男生相处在一起,甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快。

女生的聚会,是黏稠稠的,像一锅浓粥,温暖在胸,但是吃多了会撑,一眨眼又饿,

而且很多女生都为情所困,谈来谈去总是心有千千结,别人管也管不完,

跟这些男生相处,我很惊讶…

他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘,就能一眼洞穿人生的奥秘,

甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯,能结交有智慧、理想与热情的朋友,是人一生莫大的幸福吧 。

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质,也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待,

不因为我是女生,就随便说些甜言蜜语来哄我,或者根本不睬我 。

如果追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜,那我实在「舍不得」把这些男生当成男朋友,

我害怕一旦变成男女朋友,我就会计较他不送我回家…

他不说些好听的动心话…他宁可送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一粒巧克力…

我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁,微笑地看他在众人间侃侃而谈,我发问的机会都没有。

男女之间,其实不只有爱情…

有种友情,是只可会意不可言传的。

彼此之间有种惺惺相惜的感觉,不必害怕别人的误会,

因为彼此心中坦荡,很喜欢这种“兄弟”之称的友谊,

这种朋友有种信赖的安全感,可以肆无忌惮的说笑,天马行空的胡扯,彼此之间没有包袱,

但有种珍惜,是对友谊的珍惜。

你也许会对他(她)撒娇,但不会妒忌他(她)对别人也如此,

不用再他面前装做淑女(或不用在她面前装做绅士),

有种朋友即使很久没见也不会生疏,相见时的相视一笑,便会有种心有灵犀的感觉,

和他(她)在一起时,不必担心会背叛你,因为他只会给你默默地支持,

即使你受伤了,他也会给你做坚强的后盾。

心情不好时,他(她)会装傻逗你笑,

生病时,他(她)会叮嘱你要小心什么,

每逢特别节日时,他(她)会发一条简信祝福你,

很多人都希望有这种友谊,因为它不需要负担与责任,

我想这种友谊也要讲机缘吧,友谊也需要关心、谅解、信任。

我希望友谊地久天长。

我很珍惜我身边的每一位朋友谢谢你们对我的支持与爱护。



END



Saturday, September 25, 2010

~PT2 passed, mock exam is coming soon!~

PT2 has been passed in this week, it can say that mock exam is coming soon. I take it with a normal heart.=P Recently, classmates gossip about me.@@ Because I have said out some word then caused a sensation in the class. But I will take it easy because I am used to it. Before this, friends always like to help me make a pair, I also have no choice. As long as not too much, I can accept this joke. So don't worry I will not angry of that. I am a tolerance person, LOL. Today T5 results was out, I failed again= = Disappointed to myself, it is my fault, because I didn't done well. I have made up my mind again, I must concentrate in studies now, less playing, online and go out. My aims is pass all the CAT paper once. I don't want any of the paper failed. So, this time I am seriously. I must do it! I have faith on myself and also God. I will depends on Him all the time.
In the last two weeks, it is holidays week. Our church has held a camp at Cactus Inn, Seri Alam. We have a lot of fun at there. Church camp is held annually. This year was held in a near place, that's why we can go, thankful to Lord. If not, we can't go also. [$$$] This camp has benefits me a lot. Beside the God's word that motivate me, our relationship among youth group also become closer. This is the will of god, we must treasure.
During Hari Raya, my family and I had visited my mum's Malays friends house at Pandan. This was the first time I received ‘greepau' and went to Malays houses.xD My mum's Malays friends were not very rich, they live in the Pandan Malays kampung. Their kampung house was old and small. Some are wooden house. If raining, the water will lead from the roof. I was surprise that there still have such a kampung in JB. Their kampung was different from our Chinese kampung, the house are not in a row, all build in random, at least we have our own address clearly, they seem like no?? Ermm, maybe I was fuss because I live in city since childhood. But the only things I can praised was their food, it is delicious and tasty although all are hot. Curry, Rendang, Sambal!! LOL. It is a nice visit!
That day, they were quarrel. Sadly. I was cry for that. I started to blame. I don't know what should I do at the time. When I wanted to vent my emotions, I found no place. I was thinking, I have a lot of friends. But I have no confidant. Absolutely. Maybe others will think I have a good interpersonal relationships and popularity. But actually not many people know me deeply. I have no bosom friend at all. I tell myself, it's okay, because I have Lord. When I was sad, helpless and suffer, I have nobody to tell, to complain, and to release my emotions. I was grieved. My tears drop down. Instead, the only thing that I can do is pray in front of Lord. I prayed, Lord Jesus, please give me strength, let my heart be strong again, so I can faced all the difficulties. Just like people who have the burden must come in front of Lord, he will come for us to carry it. I believe the almighty. Prayer is the best way. Nothings gonna change your love for us, thanksgiving, Lord. Every time you had listen to my prayer, I can felt Lord is stand beside me, listen to me through heart. I will follow you until the end of the world and the time until the Lord Jesus comes. Amen!
Yesterday, youth group practised song. This time we change our style. Let it become two song leaders. This is a good idea from priest! So, we had chosen Ying. In my heart, I think, maybe after she has this experience as a song leader, she will know my difficulty and stress before. Hopefully she will realise and change her attitude. Besides her, another member that let me headache was Zhao. We all know that he was a perfectionist. But sometimes, he was too requires perfect. There are no perfectionist in this world. How can we achieve his request? We are not that powerful. I was scared he will exploded again like last time and will cause dispute. Fortunately, he has remember the lesson last time, his thought had change to be patience and no more get angry easily. I was happy to see that. By the way, we can say that actually he has a very good talent in music, his opinion always was good in worship. So I was appreciate his opinion every time. Thanks God that we have such a talent member in our church. God wants revival in our church. Youth group member, are you prepared to revive yourself? Yes, I am the first one to say yes! Hallelujah! Yesterday we had completed our first MTS course in this year. We learned a lot about bible through this course. And we become more spiritual in our life. I am looking forward to the next course, it was about Father, Son and Holy Spirit and filled with the Spirit speaking in tongues pray. We don't want to be a nominal Christian, that's why we need to attend courses to know more about our religion. Just like our slogan: From believers to disciple, from his disciples into the ministry! Also can not forget the Gospel, we should share Gospel with people around us, this is our mission for each Christian. Let more people know about our Lord and accept Him as our savior. This was challenging task but I think youth group will try their best to achieve.
Believe in myself and God! I can lead well. Amen.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

~HOlidays over~

Time passed very fast, I have been accustomed to college life in this five months. It is a totally different from secondary school's life, different peoples I met and different incidents I experienced. Since I didn't write blog for so long, I have a lots of words want to say. xD

Appreciate God that let me can made friends with this soul mate. Thanksgiving. After get along with them for five months, our friendship was established gradually. I realise that [True good friends, does not mean that there are endless topic to talk about when together.But when together, even if not talking, will not feel embarrassed.] A meaningful phrases to me. Hope our friendship in the future can be maintained always. Erm, I think two people can make in the life of them become friends, this is a fate. We should appreciated and treasured. No matter how long you have not met him or her, at least our hearts are still remember each others, this is enough. For me, occasionally receive a sms is simply a warm regards from them. I will always remember the memories with my friends on my mind. My friends, trust me that you are not forgotten!

Last few weeks, I had followed Kae Sheng and joined the Christian Fellowship on Induction day in college. The first event I had attended was Youth Alpha Course which are held on every Friday night in Full Gospel Church. Have a nice night with all that day. I think their church events very good and suitable for teenagers to participate. But it is sadly to say that I just attend for one time only because dad are not allowed me to drive at night. Haiz. I actually quite like to continue to participate. In attending this course, I can made more friends, learn more about other churches and the Word of God. =] Unfortunately, I also cannot attend Christian Fellowship meeting on every Thursday evening =( because that time can't match with my time. It's a pity. >.<

In this week, I have went fishing with Dad for two times. Lived 18 years, this is the first time to go fishing. In my childhood, father started working in the fishing shop for so many years, but I have no chance to go fishing with him. Finally the opportunity came. This is a very good experience for me. Because of fishing, I love the sea: the beauty of the sea, the sea calm, the sea taste and flavor of the sea. Fresh air with beautiful scenery suddenly let my troubles on behind. Feeling very comfortable, I love it! Of course not forgetting about fishing. Actually fishing is not difficult to learn, I can mastered the techniques soon. Fishing was fun but it requires patience and perseverance. Moreover, fishing certainly not suitable for a person who afraid of sun and afraid of dirty. Fortunately, I'm not the one xD And when you catch the fish at the moment, there is a strange sense of accomplishment =) however it is cruel to the fish >.<>.

Recently I have a lot of feelings towards my friends, youth group and my family. But now I am busy preparing for the exam, I do not have extra time to write a blog.

TO BE CONTINUED...